Long time, but I haven't forgot.....

I'm truly sorry for that fact that I haven't posted anything since September. A lot went on throughout that time.

October was all about severe bone and joint pain, The Dr.'s put me on a pain regimen
The Dr.'s put me on a pain regimen that kept the pain tolerable. Unfortunately it wasn't up to par.

In November the pain ensued, but I was determined to push through it. I was have Thanksgiving for 13 people and it was aweomse. However, trying to get my house back on Friday was hard for me to do. I slept mostly all day Saturday, seriously! I was still taking my pain regimen, but I wasn't drinking enough water because I felt sleep was far better for me.

In the end, I suffered from dehydration which inturn cause renal failure. I was in the Hospital for 2 and a 1/2 weeks while they treated me for "medibolic encephlopathy".

While in thehospital, my medical oncologist saw me every day to check up on me. That is the time when I actually asked him how long did he think I had. At that time 6-9 months. And just the other day he told 6-7 months. I tried to not let it sink into my conscience, it did. But God is ever faithful for he gave me scriptures to fight that feeling of fear.

According to the Bible, my days are numbered as are everyone else’s, with only GOD knowing the actual time and place. That is why I encourage people to live each day as if it were your last as I try to do.
This mentality has reshaped my outlook during this endeavor. The Dr.’s are 6-7 months left, and God is promising something else. To reconcile these two battling ideas, God gave me these scriptures to help my fear. It’s a wonderful feeling now that I know what it is to have our days numbered. And the fear is fading away.

II Kings 20:5
Thus sayeth the Lord, “I have heard your prayer, [and] I have seen your tears; surely I will heal you”

On a different matter, I need some serious praying please!!!!! While I was in the hospital in late November, early December I was in ICU beause not only for the renal failure, but my blood pressure was dongerously low (76/43) and they kept trying all the different heart medicines to bring it up, but after three day of in and out of conscienceness and hallucination as well I was done. But I was determined to be discharge.

When I returned home I realized I missed my Cobra payment because I was tied with other things when it was due. So, as of November, December, & January I have't been able to take my Herceptin drug or my chemo because I don't currently have insurance.

We are in the appeals process, because you can get the denial overturned for extremely exestential circumstances. We should know by tomorrow (Friday) or early next week. Out contact person at the insurance company seems very encouraged by how thngs are looking on his side.

So I am aksing for favor and success on getting back on COBRA and restarting chemo!

Thank you so very mu for all your encouragement, prayers, and support. God Bless you!